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Feb. 14th, 2014 08:01 pm* one of the first e-mails i ever sent was to the webmaster of a law & order fansite, to ask him if claire kincaid was really dead. we were a couple of seasons behind in brazil and aftershock had just aired here. i think i was twelve-ish and i was devastated.
this recollection was brought on by my recent efforts to figure out some of the finer points of the magical process that takes me from indifference to emotional investment in fictional characters.
after 13 episodes of the blacklist, i know more about elizabeth keen than i got to know about claire kincaid in 60+ episodes of l&o and yet, while i have generally positive feelings about lizzie, i don't really... care. (that could be said of all characters in the blacklist, tbh. but i keep watching. mystery.)
* if you've read david rakoff's essays, you can recognize a lot of the author in the characters of Love, Dishonor, Marry, Die, Cherish, Perish (particularly cliff) and i feel like that more than anything was what got to me. very earnest personal projects of love tend to undo me.
* "I don't know where to put things, you know? I really do have love to give! I just don't know where to put it!" for a long time i've felt his quote was me & my thing with pets & wanting kids. but i've been reconsidering it a lot, recently. about the amount of love i actually have to give and the quality and stuff.
this recollection was brought on by my recent efforts to figure out some of the finer points of the magical process that takes me from indifference to emotional investment in fictional characters.
after 13 episodes of the blacklist, i know more about elizabeth keen than i got to know about claire kincaid in 60+ episodes of l&o and yet, while i have generally positive feelings about lizzie, i don't really... care. (that could be said of all characters in the blacklist, tbh. but i keep watching. mystery.)
* if you've read david rakoff's essays, you can recognize a lot of the author in the characters of Love, Dishonor, Marry, Die, Cherish, Perish (particularly cliff) and i feel like that more than anything was what got to me. very earnest personal projects of love tend to undo me.
* "I don't know where to put things, you know? I really do have love to give! I just don't know where to put it!" for a long time i've felt his quote was me & my thing with pets & wanting kids. but i've been reconsidering it a lot, recently. about the amount of love i actually have to give and the quality and stuff.
