anna

She played here. Janelle opened for her. Reports are unanimous: it was awesome.

... I wasn't there. Because I decided it'd be irresponsible to waste money I don't have.

And maybe it's the rotten mood I'm in, and the fact that tennis and life are making me feel funny, but I've also decided I've had enough of ST fanfic/fannish things.

I have realized I don't really love Star Trek. I love (Christopher Pine's) James Tiberius Kirk's face. And I love the idea of Winona. And I love the Enterprise. And Sulu and Scotty in my head. And I love the potential Reboot Kirk and Spock have to be just ~~*LEGENDARY*~~ in an uncertain, "are we as awesome as we are supposed to be? ARE WE FAILING AT OUR DESTINY?" way. I mean - "Commanding a starship is your first, best destiny. Anything else is a waste of material." I WOULD KILL TO HEAR REBOOT SPOCK SAY THAT, NEGL.

But that's all I love, and this fandom confuses me/makes me feel guilty. IDEK. I D E K.

... I'll never get to watch Amy and Janelle, will I?