and now google tells me she was jewish and that line about kissing walls means even more

yesterday, i sat at the children's area of a bookstore (because it was the only place with empty seats available) and read clarice lispector's A Hora da Estrela (the hour of the star) in its entirety.

then i felt bad for being brazilian and never having read any of her work in full before.

then i felt even worse for myself because she told me something in 87 pages that only two authors have told me before (both russian, both i only discovered as an adult) and i could have found this and used this so much earlier in my life. and it would have made a world of difference to my teenage self. so much difference.

then i went home and i found out the gentleman and lady winners of that sports event in paris i'd been ignoring and i was pleased.